New York: McElderberry Books, 2001. Advance Reading Copy. Trade Paperback. Very Good. 200 pp; Advance Reader's Copy (ARC); some edge wear, covers slightly curled; For more than a year, fourteen-year-old Kristin uses her diary to record her confused thoughts about the physical changes brought on by adolescence and the emotional strain on her family of living with the "ghost" of her beloved older brother who was physically and mentally destroyed while serving in Vietnam.