That's How I Roll Hardcover - 2012 - 1st Edition

Excerpt

Around here, even dying can be hard. Horribly hard. Only death itself comes easy. By easy, I mean frequent. Death happens so often that people regard it pretty much the same as the never-ending rain.
   
When life itself is hard, you have to be hard to live. Even a bitch will cull one of her own pups if she doesn't think he's going to be tough enough--she knows she's only got but so much milk, and there's none to waste.

Survival isn't some skill we learned--it's in all our genes. Nobody needed to be told to step aside when they saw the Beast coming. But not everyone stepped fast enough.
   
There's rock slides. Floods, too. Those are natural phenomena. You live here, you expect them. But just because a man's found under tons of rock, or floating in the river, doesn't mean his death was due to natural causes.

Folks drink a lot. Wives get beaten something fierce. Some of those wives can shoot pretty good. And some of their husbands never think it can happen to them, even when they're sleeping off a drunk.

There's supposed to be good and bad in everyone. Probably is. But here, it's the bad in you that's more often the most useful.

Like the difference between climate and weather. Most folks around here don't view a killing as good or bad--just something that happens, like a flood or a fire.

That's why a whole lot of bodies never get viewed at all.

For a man like me, this is a good part of the country to do my work. I take pride in the quality of my work, but I never deceive myself that every death at my hands is justified, never mind righteous or noble.

I never saw myself as ... much of anything, really. Just a crippled, cornered rat, trying to protect my little brother with whatever I can.

Media reviews

“Combines [Vachss’s] trademark black humor with his longstanding concern for children and their well-being. . . . A smart, cynical glimpse into the human condition.”
—Kirkus Reviews

“Crafty, strong-willed Esau combines courtly manners, deadly paybacks, and ruthless singularity of purpose in this chilling tour de force.”
 —Publishers Weekly

"Born of a supremely abusive father and his own sister, Esau Till is trouble from day one—a hired killer who ends up on death row. This book unfolds as Esau's effort to tell his life story in a bid to protect Tory after his own death. Vachss writes raw, eye-opening works that deserve our attention."
—Library Journal

PRAISE FOR ANDREW VACHSS:
“Many writers try to cover the same ground as Vachss. A handful are as good. None are better.”
—People
 
“Writing in a style so sleekly engineered that it purrs when you pop the hood, Vachss gives us such a smooth ride that it’s easy to forget someone is driving this thing.”
—The New York Times Book Review
 
“Vachss’s stories . . . burn with righteous rage and transfer a degree of that rage to the reader.”
—The Washington Post Book World
 
“A contemporary master . . . Decidedly hard-boiled, his prose is lean, tough-edged, and brittle.”
—The Atlanta Journal-Constitution
 
“Vachss’s tough-guy writing style grabs you by the hair and jerks you to attention.”
—Detroit Free Press
 
“Vachss writes hypnotically violent prose made up of equal parts broken concrete blocks and razor wire.”
—Chicago Sun-Times