If Only Hardcover - 1999

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From ex-Spice Girl Geri Halliwell, one of the world's most famous pop superstars, comes her own honest, revealing, and poignant life story. For the first time ever, Geri herself takes readers past the glamorous facade of Ginger Spice to show the vulnerably real young woman behind it. Illustrated with dozens of photographs, "If Only" is part coming-of-age story and part inspirational memoir, chronicling Geri's search for acceptance and purpose that would lead her into, and ultimately away from, music's greatest girl-group phenomenon, the Spice Girls.

As the unofficial spokesperson for the Spice Girls, as the woman who coined the term "Girl Power", or as the heart-stopping beauty in the famous Union Jack dress, Geri Halliwell had quite a lot to do with making journalists and pop music fans around the world pay attention to a virtually unknown quintet from London. Geri's departure from the band in May 1998, when they were at their chart-busting peak, was front-page news around the world, leaving reporters and fans scrambling for answers. Now, in "If Only", Geri Halliwell is ready to share, detailing her troubled childhood, her father's untimely death, her breast-cancer scare, her complex relationships with the other Spice Girls, and her constant battle with feelings of inadequacy.